This Is On You: A Fan Service Series Novella (Book 3.5) by Hinsel Meyer

Author:Hinsel Meyer [Meyer, Hinsel]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2023-12-07T16:00:00+00:00

NINE

Harrison

Saturday, December 19th

I’ve been awake for hours. Holding Tristan in my arms, I feel his breath on the side of my neck as I try to make sense of everything that’s changed in the last twenty-odd hours of my life.

I kept Tris on top of me all night—he slept like the dead, so I didn’t mind at all. It grounds me, he grounds me.

I’ve never done what I did last night.

I’ve never taken someone over when I was feeling out of control. Normally, when something rattles me, I hide away in my office or my room for hours, and once I’ve calmed down, that’s when I allow myself to seek out the comfort of controlling someone else.

Tristan was here, though, and he was the catalyst.

And he was willing.

It’s not his fault, I was never actually angry with him, and I hope he knows that. If he doesn’t, then I’ll simply set the record straight.

Nothing I did last night was out of anger toward him. Most of it was out of desperation because I hate fucking losing it.

Tristan—a man I’ve only known for those twenty-odd hours—finding out a decades-old family secret right after he gave me all I’ve ever wanted in a sexual partner screwed with my head.

I should’ve known he’d go downstairs, I should’ve known he had a curious streak a mile wide. I could’ve ordered him not to, but that would’ve probably only pissed him off, and it would’ve gone directly against the rules he’d laid down when we got here.

I have no power over him outside this room.

The thought makes me uncomfortable, I don’t want to control Tristan outside of sex. I really, really don’t, but now, just like my children, I have to protect him.

Not from Eian, I know damn well Eian has no interest in harming innocent businessmen, but from the world and what it would do should this secret ever come out. The irrational fear will never go away, I think. Not for me, not for Eian.

We both have too much to lose.

I feel the exact second Tris wakes up, and I go over what I want to say. Tristan is the first person who doesn’t work for me I’ll explain my family history to. If the first part of the conversation goes well.

I’ve only had to explain it to Zeke and Matt. Both are men who’d already been approved of by Eian, and who’d been in the military for more than a decade. They both understand the need for secrets and the power they hold. They both respect me and my choice to love my cousin even if I don’t share his beliefs or believe in his methods.

Everyone else always knew. Connor is the son of the man Uncle Ronan ordered to take care of his sister, he’s known since he was a teenager and he started protecting me as soon as he came back from his five-year stint in the military. Connor and Ma, then later Zeke, Matt, and now Tris. That’s everyone who knows on my side.

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